the holidays this year…. got me thinking … I realized that over the past 5 years…. my ex hasn’t had a good christmas… Granted she’s not christian… but I think ever since the day I met her… I have not provided her with a happy holiday….
I don’t feel guilty… i mean… past is past. Besides, it was mainly because we were always in a state of emergency… always having to work hard to survive and get by…. not financially… but more about constantly being in an environment that was hard for both of us… having to constantly take care of each other… support each other. I mean…. I suppose that’s part of a relationship, right? But… in a way… I wish… just once… I could have given her a relaxed day on this holiday….
Now… that things are fallen apart between us… I suppose… finally she can relax without the stress I bring….
So… I suppose its good to wish her a merry christmas… as she can finally have one….