Start Wearing Purple for me… NOW!

This is about fetishes/kinks.  Back in my early 20s, i was a cheater.  it took a long time for me to come out of that mentality and learn my lessons on how to handle a relationship… but that’s another story.   I was married…. and dating this girl in Hiroshima. She was really lonely and wanted attention. I was cheating. And[…]

Abuse and the Beast…..

I’ve had some abusive relationships… hell… even my family was abusive.  I’ve had anger management issues, physical abuse control issues, mental…. and i’ve had partners that abuse me too.  just some nasty, horrible, turbulent relationships.  oddly my friendships are generally healthier… but that’s not the point.  it takes 2 to have a relationship, but the point of this isn’t what[…]

2 year anniversary of a happy day……

Today is the 2 year anniversary of the happiest day of my life….. 2 years ago on this day … this woman entered my life…. She’s got a smile and energy when she walks into a room…. that captures every heart. Everyone loves her…. and can’t help adoring her…. sometimes i hate how much she’s loved by everyone…… adored by[…]

War Whore

Would you prefer to have your daughter be a soldier on the front lines, or a prostitute? This question was the essence of what i pondered on this past weekend.  My mother was in many ways dependent on men, and often had to resort to selling herself or using her body and image and looks to get men provide for[…]

I WAS YOUNG

Yesterday… I think I was young… Life tasted… sweeter than rain…. I slept through the naked light of day…. And smiled at evening mists’ tender touch on my face… A thousand dreams I had… without a plan to build…. How the years have run away… Drinking games…  waited for me…. So many pleasures… … just for me I ran so[…]

Echoes

Echoes in my heart… filled with ghosts and silhouettes of you… Your voice and thoughts and tears and heart… echoes in my mind’s eye…. When no one else hears you… I want to feel you…. When no one else can stand by you… I want to support you …. I want to feel you aren’t alone… and make you feel[…]

Tell yourself you’re fucked.

When i was younger, i went through a mental breakdown.  when my dad died…. i crashed.  i was in a clinic, counselling, lost work , dropped out of school… i had hallucinations… i was on lots of drugs.  along with all this i was in counselling to get help.  on my way to recovery… one of the STRONGEST coping mechanisms[…]